Emotions{Heart}

All this while..
Is it that i'm being a lier to myself?..
When the moon comes,One hopes for it..
But when it arrives,One try avoidin even meetin it..
Y is this keep happenin' to me...?
Will it b forever as the One said?..
Y shud it b me?
Is this a punishment?...I always tot i'm strong but seems like it's not the matter anymore..
I've tried to let u go but y does U keep comin bak to me?
Can't it juz b normal?juz be like how we use to be?..
U're killin me....
I made a fool out of myself
will i be able to handle when the time comes?o juz breakdown?...
I dun wanna be numb!!!!
but...
it juz keep comin to me...
y?