The Sorrowful Eyes

Hey, there's been quite a long time since i saw u the last time. How have u been doing? I'm unsure of ur life now but somehow..somehow...i see sorrow in your eyes. Even if u smile, your heart felt happy but i can sense there are some glimpse of sorrow in you.. i hope im wrong and you having a happy life....

   Once i know a girl who fallen in love with a boy....

            One day.. She saw a glimpse of hope...

                 But... everything change.. because of the family bound..

Status.. Money.. 

                         ... Everything changed...

She felt longing for that boy because she felt insecure anymore just being together with that boy,it's like every second they are been watch... anything she tell him is recorded.. been filed up.. 

....her love for him is there but because of the boundary, she is scare.. she is scare.. and she burst to tears just to think of that because... the boy doesn't know she assume..

     That boy when study abroad, learned new things, admired a new girl.. 

She just sit and watch.. happy yet scare.. she is bursting out..

Every night she can only sing to herself alone accompanied by her tears..

                                                                                                              ...no one knows...

She missed him alot..

                               alot..

She is broken... she turned uncontious.. 

 and yet...   ...he still don't know.

The sorrow in the eyes..

Lately~...


...I'm so tired
Tired of assignments mostly..and maybe a lil' of other stuffs like this and that..my handphone perhaps..
One of my fren once told me that "why you like to make it so complicated? just do it, don't think".. perhaps i should..but i feel like my brain is in constant rotating, thinking so many stuff..
I enjoy dreaming and it is my comfort zone...a place to keep me comfort and safe but it's not that comfortable now as my head is in constant strain.. I don't have much emotion nowadays..
nothing excited me.. nothing stimulate me...
im constantly seeking for something to stimulate me...
I guess there is no room in my head for emotion now..
.....i'm sick..
..........sick~

Do Re Mi Fa So~TONE..D

Thursday, 29 July 2010

I just had my chicken rice and thai chicken feet at The Spring, KUCHING. It is not my 1st time eating there though but still im quite satisfied la since i felt so hungry after swimming at Stampark at BDC, KUCHING with my frens Deqli and Danie. I have tis issue coming up lately which is loseing my weight and tone up my body abit. It has not been a big issue before this but after i went to this shop which sells swimming gear and went trying on one of the good looking arena speedo or what ever they call it and i felt really offended with how bad it looks on me with my big fat thighs. The 1st thing that went into my mind is "Eww, sooo fat!!" i don't want to turn into a boomer even though i critize them..kinda, hahaha.. My target is not very high though, i just want my waist to be around 31 inches to 32 inches, a lil' visible of abs, tone biceps and triceps, and smaller thighs, in short..TONED!! i hope i can achieve that around 1 month after i started my new semester perhaps?hmm.. so do you guys have and comments of idea or tips on toning up the body or losing weight to share?? if u do, do leave them in my chat box because it is meant to let u guys, the hot stuffs and faboulous people to share ur ideas, message or comments on my post or even my blog..hehe ok la, i want to go do other stuffs d..c ya all around again soon..huggz

CHRISTINA AGUILERA - NOT MYSELF TONIGHT

I kinda love this song recently as it feels like clubbing when i listen to it, haha.

I love her looks in the video as well because i think they are nice and creative.

Most imposrtantly i love her golden titanium blonde hair.

Since i enjoy this video so much, i hope YOU will enjoy it too..xp

(Spoken):

You know, tonight I'm feeling a little out of control.

Is this me? You want to get crazy?

Cos I don't give a (Owww!)

I'm out of character, I'm in rare form

And if you really knew me, you'd know its not the norm

Cos I'm doing things that I normally won't do

The old me is gone, I feel brand new

And if you dont like it, fuck you

The musics on and Im dancing

I'm normally in the corner just standing

I'm feeling unusual. I don't care cos this is my night

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

I'm dancing a lot and I'm taking shots and I'm feeling fine

I'm kissing all the boys and the girls

Someone call the doctor cos I lost my mind

Cos I'm doing things that I normally won't do

The old me is gone, I feel brand new

And if you dont like it, fuck you

The musics on and Im dancing

I'm normally in the corner just standing

I'm feeling unusual. I don't care cos this is my night

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

In the morning, when I wake up

I go back to the girl I used to be

But baby, not tonight

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

I'm not myself tonight

Tonight I'm not the same girl, same girl

(Spoken):

Yeah, that feels good. I needed that

Yeah. Get crazy, lets go

Uhhh, thats right. Come on

Uhhh. Yeah, give it to me now

Dont stop. Uhhh. Yeah.

AIKIDO DEMONSTRATION BY SEIKISHIN DOJO

This video is taken when i visited them last month.

In the video is Sensei Ghazali aka Deqli and Sensei Hamdani aka Dani showing their students Aikido's technique.

Random

First i want to appologize for the super duper extremely long period of not updating my blog ever since fb had taken over me hahaha...i'm so lazy to blog plus i dunno wad to blog sometimes..hmm

ok.. im gonna update u guys a bit on what i've done recently... Ive joined Aikido recently at Seikishin Aikido Dojo, Kuching. It was fun as i can sweat there, move my body more and noe more great people from different fields. I will try to post some of the videos asap in my next coming update. Apart from that, i've move out from living in my aunty. It has been a new experience as i never move out before and live alone. I have to plan everything everyday including how much clothes i need to wash and when to have my breakfast, lunch and dinner, hahaha. hmm...Ive been joining outdoor activities such as climbing mount Santubong and went to some waterfalls. I've got a pet too..i bet u guys can't even guess what pet i've got, muahahaha...it's a snake!!!! but it is only a thin small snake, hahaha...erm i'm still new to it so i hope it will tolerate me. Did u guys notice that i'm using "it" cuz im not sure whether it's male or female..nor the people who sells it know cause he say he din check it, hmm~ is it true? hahaha..nvm la..i dun care so much too.. so lately since my lovey when to KL for shopping with the sis, i'm left alone in kuching..but luckily i got a few nice frens la hahaha..so im off striving my stupid assignments..sigh..they are not that stupid, just that i blame then because my adobe illustrator cannot use...n i have to risk my pendrive on poking into the usb of our school's tons-of-virus pc..sigh..no doubt that they are fast, but at the same time they are dangerous too, hahaha...hopefully i can finish most of my assignments in time as im not in a good position now, y? cuz they sem gonna end in 2 weeks time yet. Muahaha, how am i gonna finish all off them in just short 2 weeks? I'm glad as our lecturer decided to extend the duration of this semester so that we can have more time to do our asignments but at the same time it is not good too if my partime job doesn't let me go with my final presentation because it falls in one of the working days, have to pray hard hahaha...i guess i should be resting soon and then wake up again to do my work...wish me luck ok, frens...huggz..